Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Those Two Little Lines

May 26, 2010
KC and I had agreed that we wouldn't try for babies until at least our first wedding anniversary on June 13, 2010. Sometime around April, I convinced my dear husband that maybe I should quit taking birth control. I have several friends that took months or years to get pregnant after birth control. He agreed, and that was the end of that.

I had been feeling a little funny, a little suspicious, for the past week or so. Something just kept gnawing at me and I had to just buy a pregnancy test on the way home from school yesterday. I even laid in bed last night and thought, "You're pregnant, and you're not going to go take that test in there!"

But still I hadn't really convinced myself that it was true. Whelp, apparently my instincts are smarter than my logic. I took a test tonight. Holy smokes, it's positive!! It is freakin' positive!! I'm such a mix of emotions. I'm happy, excited, shocked, and scared out of my mind!! I thought it was going to be hard to get pregnant. :-/ What?? Whatever!

I sat there on the toilet with my mouth hung open for a good ten minutes. KC was lying on the couch watching t.v. I walked into the living room and plopped on the couch, staring off into space with mouth still wide open. He said, "What?"

I just handed him the test and then with mouth still open started to laugh. He again was like, "What? Are you serious? Are you serious?"

Baby Barnhill, we don't know what to think!!! Hahaha. We are so very excited for you, but you have snuck up on us! We weren't expecting this to happen so quickly. We kept saying, "We're going to have a baby. We're going to have a baby." It started out in monotone with deer-in-headlights look. Then it got a little peppier and peppier, until we were screaming it and laughing and hugging.

Oh crap, I'm going to be a mommy. AHHHHHHH!!!!! Life as we know it is going to change forever! So far, dear child, you have not made Mommy sick and I'd appreciate it if you kept it that way. I'll keep you updated with all the changes and weird feelings you give me. I'd kind of appreciate it if I didn't blow up to be a cow, but I guess that's a little more on my part than yours. Well, sweet baby, I'm going to go dream about you now. I hope that my belly is a comfortable home. Your sweet spirit is already preparing to leave Heaven to come to Earth. I can't imagine the beauty that surrounds you. I love you with all my heart. I live my life for you.

Love, Mommy

P.S. You are the size of a sesame seed right now.


the lindster! said...

Love the title of this "those two little lines." Oh how they certainly change things...I appreciate your posts..and will be an avid reader. You're an amazing person...and I can not put into words adequately how much I look up to you. What a great mother and person you are. Though we don't know one another super well..I know that you are wonderful..and can feel the love you have for everyone just through your words. So thank you for inspiring me and uplifting me.

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